Sunday, November 28, 2004
heyo!!!
the feeling just continue... the problem now is not how to solve it but how long does it last? does it just continues till foreva? until one dae we cannot take it and just break down? break down frm everything? is death the solution? or izzit just a way to run away from all the problems? i am not really sure. i just know soon, i could not take it and just break down. do i hab to be wad everyone think i am? a guai kia? someone who could do average in exams and acts like a dog? be dere when they need me and leae them alone when they dun? do i hab to be perfect? i know the answer to it but i dunno how to solve it. i am not the one u think i am. i just hope, one dae, u will understand that i am not a dog. i am just a disgusting human.
enuf of those. now is for lighter topic. if want to continue, it takes 4eva...
wakes up in the morning and feel back to sleep.woke up and found 3 messages. all by yushan.. i really thank God for yushan. she really encourages me although not very useful cause we didn't actually have time to speak to each other. ('_'") haha... created a new face...
i met swee kee in the morning at compass point for service. was late for thirty minutes becos forgot to set the time later. went to service late again... ('_'") ( use dis face again. ) didn't get to see simi. we met yushan at hougang mrt after that. den she was oso late. haha... ate KFC again at lunch. tried the buddy meal. swee kee tries to wei nan tat cashier. i was like, hahaing... take MRT tat time, saw tuition teacher. dun dare to call him. haha...
den the sermon, i dun quite understand. den after that went to starhub and eat. den went to change. thought will be late cause at 5.15 still at douby ghaut. hehe... but didn't late lorx. but was said by that hui gu xiong. i tried to came early le lehx. den at KFC, i was like keep on coughing and sneezing cause sick mahx. dun feel like working tml. always forget order. haha... scolded a few times again. and once was NOT my FAULT! swee kee and yushan came after that. sir treat them drinks. haha. den i was touched by swee kee and yushan cause they came and 'visit' me although is making 'fun' of me. haha. den i was also touched by su yu. she see i sick and ask den also see that i cough, advise me not to take chicken and make a burger for me! haha. thank GOD for her. den sir also ask me not to eat fries and eat whipped potato. but too late le. haha. bad news is that i saw Nigel and Jia Sheng. den sir saw me toking to Nigel, den he was like asking me those funny questions.
endding here. btw, can't post a few daes later. i hope me and denise can continue to be very good frenz. cause dis few daes like drift apart. haha... hope that tomolo's work will be good. haiz. thought of that will die. hope that my mother will change her mind abt the dog...
the feeling just continue... the problem now is not how to solve it but how long does it last? does it just continues till foreva? until one dae we cannot take it and just break down? break down frm everything? is death the solution? or izzit just a way to run away from all the problems? i am not really sure. i just know soon, i could not take it and just break down. do i hab to be wad everyone think i am? a guai kia? someone who could do average in exams and acts like a dog? be dere when they need me and leae them alone when they dun? do i hab to be perfect? i know the answer to it but i dunno how to solve it. i am not the one u think i am. i just hope, one dae, u will understand that i am not a dog. i am just a disgusting human.
enuf of those. now is for lighter topic. if want to continue, it takes 4eva...
wakes up in the morning and feel back to sleep.woke up and found 3 messages. all by yushan.. i really thank God for yushan. she really encourages me although not very useful cause we didn't actually have time to speak to each other. ('_'") haha... created a new face...
i met swee kee in the morning at compass point for service. was late for thirty minutes becos forgot to set the time later. went to service late again... ('_'") ( use dis face again. ) didn't get to see simi. we met yushan at hougang mrt after that. den she was oso late. haha... ate KFC again at lunch. tried the buddy meal. swee kee tries to wei nan tat cashier. i was like, hahaing... take MRT tat time, saw tuition teacher. dun dare to call him. haha...
den the sermon, i dun quite understand. den after that went to starhub and eat. den went to change. thought will be late cause at 5.15 still at douby ghaut. hehe... but didn't late lorx. but was said by that hui gu xiong. i tried to came early le lehx. den at KFC, i was like keep on coughing and sneezing cause sick mahx. dun feel like working tml. always forget order. haha... scolded a few times again. and once was NOT my FAULT! swee kee and yushan came after that. sir treat them drinks. haha. den i was touched by swee kee and yushan cause they came and 'visit' me although is making 'fun' of me. haha. den i was also touched by su yu. she see i sick and ask den also see that i cough, advise me not to take chicken and make a burger for me! haha. thank GOD for her. den sir also ask me not to eat fries and eat whipped potato. but too late le. haha. bad news is that i saw Nigel and Jia Sheng. den sir saw me toking to Nigel, den he was like asking me those funny questions.
endding here. btw, can't post a few daes later. i hope me and denise can continue to be very good frenz. cause dis few daes like drift apart. haha... hope that tomolo's work will be good. haiz. thought of that will die. hope that my mother will change her mind abt the dog...
12:47 AM; shattered
dreams.