Wednesday, December 29, 2004
since many pple sae that my post is very long. i am going to write one short one.
well let me tell u how is my dae.
i'm hurt. then i realised that it hurts to be hurt. or else it won't be called hurt right? i am tired of the feeling call hurt.
well let me tell u how is my dae.
i'm hurt. then i realised that it hurts to be hurt. or else it won't be called hurt right? i am tired of the feeling call hurt.
1:25 AM; shattered
dreams.
Saturday, December 25, 2004
todae is christmas!
yesterdae was the carolling and service and kfc party. let me tell u one by one. anyway, todae hor, i 5 plus den wake up. hai zhen shi di yi chi lehx!
firstly, is the service. den watch drama and hip hop dance. first time wearing skirt. and a shirt which is... nvm... actually, candy nv go, won't see my chou shi also. haha. later she publizise it.
den went for carolling lorx. after carolling, want to celebrate yanyu's birthdae. den as we were late to meet liting, we was like running a marathon! MARATHON! sweating and running. pple was looking at us like we were crazy.
den was at the party. played pass the parcel and 7 up. den benjamin, lyia, swee kee and keng hei got the parcel. haha. benjamin was to kiss a manager lips to lips in the first place. den mdm change to kiss 5 hands. den danial was like running away lorx.
den gift exchange and lucky draw. den nth to do le. so in the end, dunno who suggest play basketball. me and swee kee was like stoning over there. quite funny. den sim siong and dess was very li hai. quite impressing. keng hei left earlier. i think dess' action can be compared as a snake.
den went to eat breakfast. and play cards. den go home le.
after reach home is 8 plus. den slept at around 10 den woke up at 5 plus!!! actually is 2 plus. den went back to sleep again. haha. must change dis habit be4 school reopen.
quite sad that school reopening soon. haix. i dun want! why can't remain mahx? haix. god is playing games in my life bahx?
erm. den went to my mum's there de church. den go eat porridge and see dog. i miz bobo. haix.
went to candy's blog. she seem to be very upset! candy, cheer up k? must stay happy. not same class but we are sisters now! it is much more better den being just frenz. so CHEER UP!
ending here. tml still got work and also must make delievery. i dun think is like that spell.. haha. see ya! & MERRY CHRISTMAS!
yesterdae was the carolling and service and kfc party. let me tell u one by one. anyway, todae hor, i 5 plus den wake up. hai zhen shi di yi chi lehx!
firstly, is the service. den watch drama and hip hop dance. first time wearing skirt. and a shirt which is... nvm... actually, candy nv go, won't see my chou shi also. haha. later she publizise it.
den went for carolling lorx. after carolling, want to celebrate yanyu's birthdae. den as we were late to meet liting, we was like running a marathon! MARATHON! sweating and running. pple was looking at us like we were crazy.
den was at the party. played pass the parcel and 7 up. den benjamin, lyia, swee kee and keng hei got the parcel. haha. benjamin was to kiss a manager lips to lips in the first place. den mdm change to kiss 5 hands. den danial was like running away lorx.
den gift exchange and lucky draw. den nth to do le. so in the end, dunno who suggest play basketball. me and swee kee was like stoning over there. quite funny. den sim siong and dess was very li hai. quite impressing. keng hei left earlier. i think dess' action can be compared as a snake.
den went to eat breakfast. and play cards. den go home le.
after reach home is 8 plus. den slept at around 10 den woke up at 5 plus!!! actually is 2 plus. den went back to sleep again. haha. must change dis habit be4 school reopen.
quite sad that school reopening soon. haix. i dun want! why can't remain mahx? haix. god is playing games in my life bahx?
erm. den went to my mum's there de church. den go eat porridge and see dog. i miz bobo. haix.
went to candy's blog. she seem to be very upset! candy, cheer up k? must stay happy. not same class but we are sisters now! it is much more better den being just frenz. so CHEER UP!
ending here. tml still got work and also must make delievery. i dun think is like that spell.. haha. see ya! & MERRY CHRISTMAS!
10:52 PM; shattered
dreams.
Thursday, December 23, 2004
feeling realy bored now...
later might be fun! cause gifts exchange with denise and wendy and we bought something for yifang too... hope they will like it! den after tuition, we say that we wanna go and hab dinner together and celebrate bahx. haha...
tomolo is NE make over. haix. haha... bought a skirt le. can u imagine it? SKIRT lehx! wow! i think i am not wearing it often anymore. haha... SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT lehx!!! a SKIRT! hope that wendy they all can come too. haha...
well, also want to let candy cheer up too!!! cause u know, u MUST stand firm! k? it will be over sooner den u think. dun think too much! cheer up!
anyway, like to wish dess, ' happy birthday' today, since it is his birthdae.
later might be fun! cause gifts exchange with denise and wendy and we bought something for yifang too... hope they will like it! den after tuition, we say that we wanna go and hab dinner together and celebrate bahx. haha...
tomolo is NE make over. haix. haha... bought a skirt le. can u imagine it? SKIRT lehx! wow! i think i am not wearing it often anymore. haha... SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT SKIRT lehx!!! a SKIRT! hope that wendy they all can come too. haha...
well, also want to let candy cheer up too!!! cause u know, u MUST stand firm! k? it will be over sooner den u think. dun think too much! cheer up!
anyway, like to wish dess, ' happy birthday' today, since it is his birthdae.
12:19 PM; shattered
dreams.
Monday, December 20, 2004
hi.
as there is like no polls here mahx. so i decided to hear ur views. do u all like me to write abt
a) joyous things
b) swee kee's chou shi (if any)
c) yushan's chou shi (if any)
d) candy's chou shi (if many)
e) dedication polls --> like dedicated to who?
f) and like more abt a person?
g) all of the above
as there is no poll, pls tag at the tag board and vote. haha! :) stay cheerful...
as there is like no polls here mahx. so i decided to hear ur views. do u all like me to write abt
a) joyous things
b) swee kee's chou shi (if any)
c) yushan's chou shi (if any)
d) candy's chou shi (if many)
e) dedication polls --> like dedicated to who?
f) and like more abt a person?
g) all of the above
as there is no poll, pls tag at the tag board and vote. haha! :) stay cheerful...
11:38 AM; shattered
dreams.
Saturday, December 18, 2004
well... i am so so so so so happy todae!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
probably the best dae of many daes!!!! haha... candy came to the christmas service! & she told me that she enjoys it & she CONVERT!!!! :) woah!!! at one time, i thought, ' haiz. dis couldn't happen.' and guess wad? she convert~!!! i regret thinking like that. it is so wonderful!!! haha...
well, dis part is for yifang.. haha... hows ur camp? izzit better den shopping? haha...
haha... k le... later meeting yushan and cookie to take money back. sounds like loan shark? haha...
see ya & take care. :D
probably the best dae of many daes!!!! haha... candy came to the christmas service! & she told me that she enjoys it & she CONVERT!!!! :) woah!!! at one time, i thought, ' haiz. dis couldn't happen.' and guess wad? she convert~!!! i regret thinking like that. it is so wonderful!!! haha...
well, dis part is for yifang.. haha... hows ur camp? izzit better den shopping? haha...
haha... k le... later meeting yushan and cookie to take money back. sounds like loan shark? haha...
see ya & take care. :D
6:48 PM; shattered
dreams.
Thursday, December 16, 2004
just went to yifang's blog. den see that she sae my post getting more and more complicated that i dun think she quite understand. haha. so, to let her understand, i've decided to write a post that u'll understand. haha... which is simple and short... enuf to ur standard or u want only simple? just kidding... i've also promise simin not to write till so sad like that. she sae like i want to suicide. so i've decided to write funny, confusing or just my dae and some of my thoughts.
well... kfc hab dis christmas eve thingy. think is must count down. yushan cannot make it. after some discussion, i think i'm going or not? haha.. also dunno. haha... i still haben buy presents for denise they all... haha...
later got tuition. the homework hor, dunno how to do. so meet denise to see hers... just kidding.
tml working again. but as attachment. to somewhere else. dun write here first or later pple like wendy see le, will come make fun one. haha...
well, hope that these few daes will go well.. haha... especially those daes working at KFC...
haha... yesterdae work, was consider one of the better daes there. quite fun. tell abit here. swee kee was doin closing mahx. den da xiong watch her by the side. cause swee kee not tall enuf to touch the thing mahx, so da xiong take one chair for her. den even when she is standing on the chair ( deng zi ), she is still shorter den da xiong. when she standing, me, yushan, suyu and da xiong like make fun of her. got one cheng yu to describe her feeling. dunno to laugh or to cry. haha... k lahx. now no time le...
see ya!!!
well... kfc hab dis christmas eve thingy. think is must count down. yushan cannot make it. after some discussion, i think i'm going or not? haha.. also dunno. haha... i still haben buy presents for denise they all... haha...
later got tuition. the homework hor, dunno how to do. so meet denise to see hers... just kidding.
tml working again. but as attachment. to somewhere else. dun write here first or later pple like wendy see le, will come make fun one. haha...
well, hope that these few daes will go well.. haha... especially those daes working at KFC...
haha... yesterdae work, was consider one of the better daes there. quite fun. tell abit here. swee kee was doin closing mahx. den da xiong watch her by the side. cause swee kee not tall enuf to touch the thing mahx, so da xiong take one chair for her. den even when she is standing on the chair ( deng zi ), she is still shorter den da xiong. when she standing, me, yushan, suyu and da xiong like make fun of her. got one cheng yu to describe her feeling. dunno to laugh or to cry. haha... k lahx. now no time le...
see ya!!!
12:18 PM; shattered
dreams.
Monday, December 13, 2004
well, let me put in point forms.
- i cut my hair
- irritated yushan todae
- irritated sweekee also
- felt fed up again
- hab a heart to heart talk with simin
- celebrated my brother's birthdae.
hope that tomolo, at work, i am not at the snack counter
- i cut my hair
- irritated yushan todae
- irritated sweekee also
- felt fed up again
- hab a heart to heart talk with simin
- celebrated my brother's birthdae.
hope that tomolo, at work, i am not at the snack counter
10:50 PM; shattered
dreams.
i am really fed up. fed up with not only my life but it seems to be everything in it. i dun feel like confide in anyone anymore or izzit because that i am afraid? the me now, will only probably share to others abt things that was once important in my life. but not now. i might still care for those things that was once important in my life. now, i just feel like disappearing. to somewhere no one could contact nor find. but could it be possible? in a place like Singapore? or to be exact. the world? is there really love and peace in one place and it will last forever? probably not. how long could love lasts? maybe not long enuf for someone to feel it until wad is so called the love, fade slowly... everything seems to fade away slowly.. things that was once important became wad i call illusions and things that i once treasured are now leaving me. why is dis happening?
well... i dunno why. i dunno much. i dun understand why. i am touched many times by the two very good 'sisters' in my life. but i dun feel that any of dis is solid. it seems to be permissible. able to be broken down in awhile. i dun like dis feeling. i dun want dis feeling but it can't be helped... right?
i dun understand wad my head is thinking abt at all. not at all. it can drift frm here to somewhere very far. i can comfort pple but does not put those words to practice. wad am i?
dis few daes, quite many things have happened. my dog have left probably awhile or forever, my brother is leaving for vietnam, i made many pple disappointed, my eyes seem to be like waterfall, i quarrelled wif my mum, my sister is probably going to be in china for another six months after new year and many uncomfortable things have happen. things that i dun like.
erm. my tuition for additional maths have start. i regret taking pure. i dunno y. i think i make a big fat mistake. for the fifth time since i joined sec 1. these five times, make me feel more depressed den ever. well. uncomfortable atmosphere and weird feelings are in place when the tuition start. yi fang and ee shan joined the tuition. me and wendy sat together den denise they all sit together. it might felt a little weird at first. but, i guess, the feeling will not be there as time pass by. relationship between pple might also deterioate bahx. i hope our relationship will be as good as last time but dis time, with an increased amount of people and peobably, it will be better. many things are hid in the heart and probably betta not to say it out.
the next dae, bobo left the hse. to my sis's bf hse. probably awhile, or very long. my mum still doesn't agree to keep bobo. becos of dis, i probably quarelled a million times with her. i know that i shouldn't hope that she will understand but it just isn't fair anymore.
den, i receive melissa's call.. depressing. it is depressing on how things work dis way. i have no say so if u wanna noe anything, just ask them. thanks alot anyway. to remind me how worthless i am and valueless too. thankz
my mum start relating things to a person in the past. probably, she might be worried for me. she is making me scared by saying all dis things. i just hope that dis things doesn't happen.
and then, it is the job at KFC. swee kee and i decided probably to discuss wif mdm abt it first. cause i dun think wif so many stress, we could still be able to work so many daes when school reopen. i am working soon. i have been on leave, or wad is called OFF for like two weeks. it means that there is no pay or the first half of the month. haiz. wad should i sae?
yesterdae, was the NE camp. i didn't go for it cause my mother does not really allow and den my brother is leaving soon. in a matter of daes.
i really want to thank swee kee for buying it for me. u shouldn't hab to do it u noe. cause i already hab one and also that u could spend the money on things that u like instead on me. anyway, thanks. if u want it back one dae, or not enuf cash and want me to pay u back, feel free to tell me u noe. i am not sure if it could clear my doubts, but i really thank u.
well... there is many more troubles to go through. i guess, i just hab to face it and probably get over it. if only i could... if only i could.
well... i dunno why. i dunno much. i dun understand why. i am touched many times by the two very good 'sisters' in my life. but i dun feel that any of dis is solid. it seems to be permissible. able to be broken down in awhile. i dun like dis feeling. i dun want dis feeling but it can't be helped... right?
i dun understand wad my head is thinking abt at all. not at all. it can drift frm here to somewhere very far. i can comfort pple but does not put those words to practice. wad am i?
dis few daes, quite many things have happened. my dog have left probably awhile or forever, my brother is leaving for vietnam, i made many pple disappointed, my eyes seem to be like waterfall, i quarrelled wif my mum, my sister is probably going to be in china for another six months after new year and many uncomfortable things have happen. things that i dun like.
erm. my tuition for additional maths have start. i regret taking pure. i dunno y. i think i make a big fat mistake. for the fifth time since i joined sec 1. these five times, make me feel more depressed den ever. well. uncomfortable atmosphere and weird feelings are in place when the tuition start. yi fang and ee shan joined the tuition. me and wendy sat together den denise they all sit together. it might felt a little weird at first. but, i guess, the feeling will not be there as time pass by. relationship between pple might also deterioate bahx. i hope our relationship will be as good as last time but dis time, with an increased amount of people and peobably, it will be better. many things are hid in the heart and probably betta not to say it out.
the next dae, bobo left the hse. to my sis's bf hse. probably awhile, or very long. my mum still doesn't agree to keep bobo. becos of dis, i probably quarelled a million times with her. i know that i shouldn't hope that she will understand but it just isn't fair anymore.
den, i receive melissa's call.. depressing. it is depressing on how things work dis way. i have no say so if u wanna noe anything, just ask them. thanks alot anyway. to remind me how worthless i am and valueless too. thankz
my mum start relating things to a person in the past. probably, she might be worried for me. she is making me scared by saying all dis things. i just hope that dis things doesn't happen.
and then, it is the job at KFC. swee kee and i decided probably to discuss wif mdm abt it first. cause i dun think wif so many stress, we could still be able to work so many daes when school reopen. i am working soon. i have been on leave, or wad is called OFF for like two weeks. it means that there is no pay or the first half of the month. haiz. wad should i sae?
yesterdae, was the NE camp. i didn't go for it cause my mother does not really allow and den my brother is leaving soon. in a matter of daes.
i really want to thank swee kee for buying it for me. u shouldn't hab to do it u noe. cause i already hab one and also that u could spend the money on things that u like instead on me. anyway, thanks. if u want it back one dae, or not enuf cash and want me to pay u back, feel free to tell me u noe. i am not sure if it could clear my doubts, but i really thank u.
well... there is many more troubles to go through. i guess, i just hab to face it and probably get over it. if only i could... if only i could.
1:03 AM; shattered
dreams.
Sunday, December 12, 2004
i last time decides to write a post for candy. so here goes nothing.
well, candy is a cute person but only in appearance bahx. she likes to irritate me for dunno wad. and it often happen when one person was killed by all her lame jokes. u could basically see ice walking and frozen fish flying around. the atmosphere will be so cold, it is like freezing. but she is kindda of a good fren too. she can keep secrets and also is a woman of her words most of the time. she can reallky cheer one people up when u really need a listening ear. anyway, remember to keep ur promise horx. u are booked by me on those christmas daes. haha...
happy that i wrote nice things abt u? btw, next yr, u must continue to WALK to my hse horx. haha.. cause u promise me last time de. :P
well, candy is a cute person but only in appearance bahx. she likes to irritate me for dunno wad. and it often happen when one person was killed by all her lame jokes. u could basically see ice walking and frozen fish flying around. the atmosphere will be so cold, it is like freezing. but she is kindda of a good fren too. she can keep secrets and also is a woman of her words most of the time. she can reallky cheer one people up when u really need a listening ear. anyway, remember to keep ur promise horx. u are booked by me on those christmas daes. haha...
happy that i wrote nice things abt u? btw, next yr, u must continue to WALK to my hse horx. haha.. cause u promise me last time de. :P
11:51 PM; shattered
dreams.
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
hi~!!!
i'm back in singapore! quite sad actually... actually want to stay de... didn't get to really enjoy in Beijing because of my brother. sometimes, i really hate his attitude. who is elder? him or me? shouldn't he respect me a little bit? with his type of attitude, i dunno how he could survive when he works. people working with him will get wad i mean? i began to hate him although i know its wrong... but can't keep it in my heart!
erm... lets see... i'll write abt the trip bahx...
first dae: very funny but its true... me, my sister and my bro went to the beijing's hospital because of his nose.
second dae: went to the shopping centres there. bought a pant and many many albums. haha... den went to eat lorx. food there is abt the same as singapore except it is much more oily..
third dae: woke up really late... abt 2 like that.. haha.. cause watch many dvds.. haha...
forth dae: went to last time the emperor stay de place.. is call gu gong.. i think it is quite amazing how they build and maintain it till now. wad that is much more fascinating is that last time, there lived emperors and empress.. princesses and princes and also maids and tai jian. my sister said it is not open in the nite cause like got ghosts.. very interesting...
fifth dae: went to the great wall of china... it is amazing!! so long yet they can built it.. i am very fascinated! although take the lan che go up.. den only climb a little... den climb finish, take the lan che down. haha... bought something interesting there... after that, went to the zoo.. see the animals walk infront of us. very fun.. den got one deer keep following us.. the tigers there are like very fierce.
sixth dae: the last dae of the trip. haha.. den went to buy soft toys.. bought quite alot. haha... den is my brother turn to cook... haiz...
didn't really like enjoy cause must consider dis, consider that. i hate it...
i thought alot on the journey home. quite alot that is.. i dun like my life one bit. i think i am weak.. as in a bad way. haha. i think my life stinks. everything in it stinks.. after dis trip, i can see better. wad i am in pple's eye, like my mum. am i not worth something in ur heart?
wadeva... at least i got frenz.. wad i think is frenz. only time could tell the truth...
see ya!!! buaix
i'm back in singapore! quite sad actually... actually want to stay de... didn't get to really enjoy in Beijing because of my brother. sometimes, i really hate his attitude. who is elder? him or me? shouldn't he respect me a little bit? with his type of attitude, i dunno how he could survive when he works. people working with him will get wad i mean? i began to hate him although i know its wrong... but can't keep it in my heart!
erm... lets see... i'll write abt the trip bahx...
first dae: very funny but its true... me, my sister and my bro went to the beijing's hospital because of his nose.
second dae: went to the shopping centres there. bought a pant and many many albums. haha... den went to eat lorx. food there is abt the same as singapore except it is much more oily..
third dae: woke up really late... abt 2 like that.. haha.. cause watch many dvds.. haha...
forth dae: went to last time the emperor stay de place.. is call gu gong.. i think it is quite amazing how they build and maintain it till now. wad that is much more fascinating is that last time, there lived emperors and empress.. princesses and princes and also maids and tai jian. my sister said it is not open in the nite cause like got ghosts.. very interesting...
fifth dae: went to the great wall of china... it is amazing!! so long yet they can built it.. i am very fascinated! although take the lan che go up.. den only climb a little... den climb finish, take the lan che down. haha... bought something interesting there... after that, went to the zoo.. see the animals walk infront of us. very fun.. den got one deer keep following us.. the tigers there are like very fierce.
sixth dae: the last dae of the trip. haha.. den went to buy soft toys.. bought quite alot. haha... den is my brother turn to cook... haiz...
didn't really like enjoy cause must consider dis, consider that. i hate it...
i thought alot on the journey home. quite alot that is.. i dun like my life one bit. i think i am weak.. as in a bad way. haha. i think my life stinks. everything in it stinks.. after dis trip, i can see better. wad i am in pple's eye, like my mum. am i not worth something in ur heart?
wadeva... at least i got frenz.. wad i think is frenz. only time could tell the truth...
see ya!!! buaix
11:12 AM; shattered
dreams.