Wednesday, November 22, 2006
its really really frustrating.
i am not ur puppet.
today, woke up early. the clique is coming over. we r going shopping. den SHE suddenly say you want clear e cupboard. you say you bought new cupboard and wanted me to clear. BUT YOU TOLD ME THEN ONLY. den you expect me to clear in like wad? half an hour? clear finish half e cupboard, i went to e room wif e clique. den you continue ur 'music' and started to say i am part of e family ... etc etc..
nvm. den i clear one whole bag in e room for you to see. tmr, i will continue. like that u wun nag le bah.
den when i reach home with you, you called my brother as he got graduation nite. my bro say he won't be home cause watching movie. den you sort of ask him to come home and TAKE A CAB. u talk to him so softly. i never hear tat tone for a long long time le. everytime u talk to me, is to scold or nag me. do u noe how that feel? and you said that i am unreasonable. please think before you say dis words.
u said i spend ur alot of money. i add up and its less than 400. wad izzit as to compare with him? his nite already cost more than that alone.
i did housework okay. please dun accuse me because you feel like it. because there is no other chu qi tong. then, i really feel like locking myself in a room and not hear anything.
sometime, i really wonder if i am really ur child? how can you be so ...... ? from young, i noe u like my brother more den me because of him. but i dun love him. i hate him as much as you do, why do u always ask me to do wad i dun want? and never consider my feelings. i am hurt. by ur words and action.
i try not to let u down by trying to study and score well. i know u wanna compare me with others so you ask me to go to a JC. when he have to drop some subjects, u never say anything much. is it fair?
i want to earn lots and lots of money. i want to moved out.
but, i will miss you. i am worried abt ur operation. i wanted to ask and u said that i dun care abt you. i dunno wad i can do? when will u understand me.
i hate being at home.
anyway, during shopping, had lots of fun. went to bugis, den suntec den vivo. i bought a shawl and necklace. e necklace dun goes with e shawl. so i think wear with casual clothes. will keep a look up. i lack a pair of heels and a bag. dunno wanna find a necklace ma. i dun really like my dress. haha. look really really really fat.
huimin bought e dress really very very nice. i jue ding jian fei.
i want to do manicure at bugis there. denise do one very nice. haha. so, on monday, she promised to be my slave. so, i must think of ways to torture her. i am tortured by her before.
hoped e people at e shop will employ us. i am broke and i need a job to run away from problems.
i dunno if i should spend my 3 mths in JC trial.
i am not ur puppet.
today, woke up early. the clique is coming over. we r going shopping. den SHE suddenly say you want clear e cupboard. you say you bought new cupboard and wanted me to clear. BUT YOU TOLD ME THEN ONLY. den you expect me to clear in like wad? half an hour? clear finish half e cupboard, i went to e room wif e clique. den you continue ur 'music' and started to say i am part of e family ... etc etc..
nvm. den i clear one whole bag in e room for you to see. tmr, i will continue. like that u wun nag le bah.
den when i reach home with you, you called my brother as he got graduation nite. my bro say he won't be home cause watching movie. den you sort of ask him to come home and TAKE A CAB. u talk to him so softly. i never hear tat tone for a long long time le. everytime u talk to me, is to scold or nag me. do u noe how that feel? and you said that i am unreasonable. please think before you say dis words.
u said i spend ur alot of money. i add up and its less than 400. wad izzit as to compare with him? his nite already cost more than that alone.
i did housework okay. please dun accuse me because you feel like it. because there is no other chu qi tong. then, i really feel like locking myself in a room and not hear anything.
sometime, i really wonder if i am really ur child? how can you be so ...... ? from young, i noe u like my brother more den me because of him. but i dun love him. i hate him as much as you do, why do u always ask me to do wad i dun want? and never consider my feelings. i am hurt. by ur words and action.
i try not to let u down by trying to study and score well. i know u wanna compare me with others so you ask me to go to a JC. when he have to drop some subjects, u never say anything much. is it fair?
i want to earn lots and lots of money. i want to moved out.
but, i will miss you. i am worried abt ur operation. i wanted to ask and u said that i dun care abt you. i dunno wad i can do? when will u understand me.
i hate being at home.
anyway, during shopping, had lots of fun. went to bugis, den suntec den vivo. i bought a shawl and necklace. e necklace dun goes with e shawl. so i think wear with casual clothes. will keep a look up. i lack a pair of heels and a bag. dunno wanna find a necklace ma. i dun really like my dress. haha. look really really really fat.
huimin bought e dress really very very nice. i jue ding jian fei.
i want to do manicure at bugis there. denise do one very nice. haha. so, on monday, she promised to be my slave. so, i must think of ways to torture her. i am tortured by her before.
hoped e people at e shop will employ us. i am broke and i need a job to run away from problems.
i dunno if i should spend my 3 mths in JC trial.
11:56 PM; shattered
dreams.